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Hello people, how's life.
It's been ages since I last touched on my blog. I will assure you that this is going to be a wordy one, but I don't care. I just want to crap to the max, and forget about it, and be myself.

Yup, it has been almost three months since I shifted down to Johor. I'm still surviving people, so don't worry. It was a shocking piece of news, none of us could really accept it. I remembered I was still sleeping on bed that morning, received mum's call about her receiving her letter, we would be shifting in a week's time. My first reaction, CRY. Yup, I cry a lot, cry for everything. I cried my heart out. Spent that week with my beloved friend, Xuewah. Thank her a lot for accompanying me, for understanding all my feelings, for lending me her hand to fetch me in and out. Really appreciate it. All I thought that time was my feelings, my feelings and my feelings. I was sad, I couldn't bear to leave things behind, I wasn't really willing to shift. I didn't really have a chance to thank her, didn't really know to appreciate things that she had done for me at that time. Felt really sorry, a big thank you I would like to say to her. and of course, a big hug.

Was so sad to leave Temerloh. Shifting down here, wasn't really please with the house we rented. It's small compared to our old house, it's dirty, it's ugly. Everything is just temporary. My feelings, all I cared was for my feelings. Didn't know to appreaciate anything.

After that, didn't get into poly. Was all lost. What am I going to do? Didn't apply for jpa, didn't apply for matrix. What am I suppose to do? Realising the final choice was form six. My feelings, I don't want to go for form six, back in uniforms, back into school life, and even worse to a new school. At last, got to know about sunway college by chance, just all of a sudden, mum called up and thought I should give myself a try. This 'TRY' cost about 16k. The third day of college life, I felt depressed with the stressful life, with the need of catching up with time, the all new environment, being left out feelings, and wanted to quit ausmat. Didn't appreciate mum's effort of trying to please me to allow me to give myself a try. Didn't understand about the family's situation.


Now, taking up ausmat really taught me to handle things in a different way. College life is not same at all as compared to secondary school's life, especially pre-u. I can assure you, whether it's ausmat, a levels... Everything is like, no matter how stressed you are, you just have to hang on there and complete whatever which is needed to be completed. You have no choice but to continue until you finish it. Yea, you can cry, like I always did. After crying, YOU STILL NEED TO FACE IT. Yah, you can enjoy life, watch tv, go for shopping, waste your time sleeping like me! At the end, suffer the consequences on your own! In ausmat, I also learned to accept low, really low marks. Accept the fact that my marks will never go high. Having tests everyday frustrates me, the marks frustrates more. I failed for my maths in my evaluation exam. And for other subjects, I know what to expect. Nothing is easy. NOTHING. 


Currently on my two weeks holidays, which left with 5 more days. OMG. Two more assignments..........