happy birthday :)

Weenching, Happy 17th Birthday. may all your wishes come true. May God continue to bless you in everyday of your life. :) and, thanks for being a good friend of mine. May our friendship last!! :))

random

me

whenever i'm not in the mood, when everything is not right, i tend to change the background of my blog, i tend to change the position of my table, i tend to change everything, i tend to clear my room, i tend to change the pillow cases, i tend to be very crazy. that's me.

lalala~

Suddenly got the mood to post, but don't know what to post. LOL. Ya, mum hasn't got her letter yet about the transfer. Joel said he don't want to shift no matter how. hoho. Bout me? Don't ask me. I don't know how. I don't know anything about the future. I don't even want to think about it. Where am I going to study, what am I going to study? Leave all to God will do. For sure if I'm going to do medicine, I will not go to poly for three years to get the diploma. Imagine, only diploma will already take three years. Anyway, still, leave all to God.

Spm is just days to go. And I'm still slacking around. Seriously, I haven't study. OMG. I don't know what am I doing. arghhhhhhhhhhhh.
Today is really not a good one. :( everything is just not as expected at all. not even one. i don't know what is it. i don't know what post is this. i just don't know what's going on with me.

Anyway, HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO WEEN CHING :)

sick

What's wrong with me that I get sick at this moment! haiz.
It's all because of yesterday's lunch-dinner at old town. Ordered the steam rice and old town white coffee freeze. Before that, that day I drank nescafe already caused me to feel very unwell, don't know why. Heart beating very very fast, can't sleep nicely. When I slept, it was like I was dreaming. Or ''berkhayal'' Don't know how to describe the feeling. I was already sleeping. But I feel that I can't wake up. I met you there. With your help I still can't wake up. Then I started praying. The first time, thank God, I slept comfortably. Another time it was useless, I couldn't even say the prayer, and you were not around in my dream. However, yesterday's one was the worst. Started feeling very unwell at old town, got so dizzy, heartbeat faster and faster. Then, went back home can't tahan already, felt like vomiting, headache. Took medicine. Surprisingly felt stomach pain. Suspected it was gastric. Couldn't sleep no matter how I tried. Kept feel like vomiting. It was so torturing. Started having fever all over pain and so on. Thank God I manage to sleep after that. Although keep waking up and take medicine and apply the ''oil'', I managed to sleep. This morning, still not much better, mum brought me to clinic Rama. He was not in, but his pretty daughter was there. I love her :) haha. Got the medicine.

After that, I did a very wrong thing. Went to mentakab. Went to gai gai. Argh. Almost vomited in the car. Came back and rest and sleep. Now, still relying on the medicine. Please, all the pain is torturing. Get out of me please all the sickness. Wasted two days just like that. Enough stressed now. Argh. Feel like sleeping already, I'm really useless.

I'm SAD. :(

all in all.

 

You are my strength when I am weak
You are the treasure that I seek
You are my all in all
Seeking You as a precious jewel
Lord, to give up I'd be a fool
You are my all in all

Jesus, Lamb of God
Worthy is Your name
Jesus, Lamb of God
Worthy is Your name

Taking my sin, my cross, my shame
Rising up again I bless Your name
You are my all in all
When I fall down You pick me up
When I am dry You fill my cup
You are my all in all

Jesus, Lamb of God
Worthy is Your name
Jesus, Lamb of God
Worthy is Your name

no one can separate us. ♥

Huhuhuhu. Last day of school, not going on Monday and Tuesday. At first got the what akad/akat penghalaan ilmu today, is it correct? Anything la. Wailing and Ai Wie called it as the crying ceremony. We had it during pmr, but today don't know why, didn't have it. Hoho. Went to school just for the stupid table. Oh yah, our class was ''flooded'', because it was raining heavily yesterday. Xuewah said she has to bring umbrella during spm, I think I have to bring also, I'm sitting right beside the window, and what if it rains??? The windows can't be closed too. Maybe, wearing a rain coat too?? huhuhu.

Wanna share something.

First plate, nope, should be the second plate of fried rice, cooked by ME! Don't doubt.huhu.

it can be eaten! and, it's rated for 88 marks.

Joel liked it a lot. Cooked by me too. Rated 85 marks.

Don't know why I'm interested in learning cooking this few days. But, after cooking the fried rice twice, I'm bored with it already. Anyway, it can be eaten :)



Huhuhuhu. Nothing can separate us. Nobody can replace him in my heart. ♥ you :)

me!

today-tomorrow

Time flies. Today, my brother got his UPSR results, 4A's and 3B's. He's happy with his results, anyway, work harder for pmr, hope he will get 8A's three years later.
Tomorrow will be the last day I'm going to school, last day of my secondary life, last day I'll be meeting my teachers... Thinking back when I was in form one, still a little girl who is blur and childish and just so naive, now I'm already form five. Still childish la. But then, can't believe that five years just passed like that.
After this, where will we go? How's our future? We are going in separate ways, will we still meet again? My future is full of fear, confusion and questions.. How about you?

Future, I don't know what will happen. Only God knows.

Will we keep each other in our heart?
F.R.I.E.N.D.S

Perhaps,
Hi, I'm Jolene. Nice to meet you. I'm a very bad-tempered person, evil, bad, get very emotional, smile when I'm happy, cry when I'm sad....... Be prepared.

rain

it's raining, yea raining. I miss you. All our memories came in my mind.
it's raining. such a nice weather to sleep. How to study. argh. hate myself.

15th ♥

15th month ♥

I thought today would be a great day. Not realising that I have to come back to reality.

First time I'm back home at this hour. Broke all my records I guess. Mum didn't have a chance to stop me when I went out, I went downstairs, told her I'm going out, straight i opened the door as fast as I could, and byebye I said. hoho. Huhuhu.
First and foremost, HAPPY BIRTHDAY to dearest Little Daven. Happy Happy Birthday :) Wish you would not be angry of what we've done. Nope, it's what the guys did. We girls watched only. haha.
Although things are different, still wanna wish you Happy Birthday, boy. :) God bless you. Hope you will like the card and cake. Love you and only you :)
Secondly, Happy Deepavali to all who celebrate Deepavali :)
Thirdly, its time to sleep. Nitenite.



I'm still waiting :(

another quiet night.
I'm here with my momo.
Still thinking whether I should go to school or not tomorrow. I have skipped for the past three days in a row, if it's so, tomorrow will be another day sitting at home aimlessly. Thinking of going to school, going for tuition, going for the bbq party this Saturday, I feel that I'm so strength-less. Don't expect me to entertain people at this time, it's not my job. So, it's better for me to stay at home. Yew asked me why am I so quiet. I didn't answer her. I think it's better for all of you to ignore me, give me some time. I didn't mean to make my family and friends worried, I didn't mean to be so emo. But please, I can't help myself. Just give me some time and space will do.Just don't know why I have the interest to blog, maybe after reading my previous blogs.
It's mine.

I'm sorry 

I've never told any of you anything.
Please, don't guess, don't ask.

I need some time, space. please

Never felt so terrible pain in my heart before.
I just don' know what to do. Cel, aunt, mum talked to me. Everyone hoping that I'll put aside things and know spm is more important for now.
I don't know why. I'm still feeling very miserable. Well, I skipped school for two days. I need time. When I'm alone in the house, I tend to think a lot. There are moments that I wish mum would rush back and give me a hug. I need her so much. I wanna cry all out without bothering anything. I know mummy's very worried about me. I skipped meals, I couldn't sleep although I'm beside her, I couldn't study, I locked myself in my room. Who wants her daughter to be like that? As a mum, I know she suffers the most. I'm sorry mummy for hurting you again and again. Aunt called, I promised her that I will try my best to study, at least slowly. When I'm downstairs, I watch tv. When I'm upstairs, I can't stop myself from thinking. I'm still fighting still trying. Please forgive me. I really wish to focus on studies first, but I can't help myself. I'm sorry. I don't know whether I should go to school tomorrow, or continue hiding at home, under the blanket with my tears. No one would understand it.

I'm just very sorry.
 

:(

another miserable day.
i wish i don't wake up.